After years of struggling to find my equilibrium, it's safe to say that I've yet to come to terms with this chapter of my life. I believe I'm experiencing a recession in my life. And yes, it's costly!
Am I scared? Yes! But I'm ready to move on. Change is the only solution to my situation. However, my sentimentality has prevented me to move on. But when I give it more thought, I think I'm just being an arrogant son of a bitch!
Why am I worrying about other people and what they may say about me if I made decisions for myself? Why am I even trying to flatter myself into thinking that they actually give a fuck? Did I just say the word "fuck"? Oh no! I'm gonna burn in hell and turn off a lot of people. Or maybe not because people actually don't care about what I say anyway.
But I need change, a cool change.
Here are some of the changes I need to make in my life in order for it to be better!
Order - I need to prioritize the people and goals in my life. I just can't operate like a "chicken without a head". And yes, I must say "goodbye" to some people who are time wasters.
The Habit of Saying "NO" - I admit. I am a "people pleaser". If I can say "yes" to make everybody happy, I would. But should I? No! Whoa! I just said it. I need to say "No" more often. I need to be able to say it without feeling guilty. Doing this will give me more time to focus on my life's Order.
Establish Boundaries - I believed that what's mine is also yours! Share the wealth right? I loved the fact that other people were enjoying the fruits of my labor... until they started taking most of what I worked for. LOL! Well, it wasn't really funny. Establishing boundaries not only makes it hard for people to abuse what I want to be charitable of, but it also protects what I've worked hard for to achieve.
Slow Down - I'm not in my twenties anymore. My doctor has advised me to slow down. I shouldn't stress over useless things. I should appreciate what I currently have. At my age, I'm simply chasing the years of my life. But do I really need to chase it? I'm just gonna walk behind it and enjoy what life has to offer. Simple pleasures rock!
Sleep More - Do I really need to do a Game of Thrones marathon? Do I really need to be up at 1am and consume only 3 hours of sleep. My dad dies of a stroke because he abused his body. Why am I following in his footsteps? I still want to see my children grow!
Revamp the Menu - Everything starts in the kitchen. If I want to live longer, I need to stay healthy. I can't be eating all those greasy stuff! Gotta change what's inside my fridge and pantry
A New Mindset - A humble heart. I need to get back to basics. Yes, I need a Savior in my life. I really need Jesus! I need to reconnect. This whole "I can make it on my own" really doesn't work for me. It feels empty!
There are so many things I need to work on in my life to make a cool change. I'll start with these bullets first. I know I'll get far. But in order to get a ahead, I must follow through with it. Or else it doesn't make sense to even begin.
Yes I know. It's time for a cool change!
